All I want for xmas

I don't want a lot for Christmas,

there's just one thing I need.

I don't care about the presents

underneath the Christmas tree.

I just want you for my ownmore than you could ever know.

Make my wish come true

All I want for Christmas is you.

Can you feel my heartbeat?

Again and again and again and again
너에게 자꾸 돌아가 왜 그런지 몰라 왜 그런지 몰라
Again and again and again and again
너의 말에 또 속아 왜 그런지 몰라 왜 그런지 몰라 ♥

A weakness for you

Boy I love your style,
love your smile
Wish that you could be
only mine, be only mine.
I can't let it go
I don't know
what you're doing to me.
You're so fine
Oh, you're so fine.

It's getting hot in the club
I can see they want some more.
Yeah, I will give you more
I'm your number one.

Once I get up, I'll be rock
never stop, you can be sure.
Yeah, you can be sure
I'm your number one.

Pabbo sarang

Hey playboy,
it's about time and your time’s up.
I had to do this one for my girls, you know.
Sometimes you gotta act like you don’t care
that’s the only way you boys learn.

I don’t care 그만할래 니가 어디에서 뭘 하던
이제 정말 상관 안할게 비켜줄래
이제와 울고불고 매달리지마
cause I don’t care e e e e e e ♫

Cagayake!

Kataomoi demo gyokusai de here we go!
So shining shiner shiniest, girls be ambitious & shine ~

Crush/crash

I'm a real big fan of yours
but I'm quite the joke to you.

I'm a little bit insecure
from all of this mistreatment
but see, I'm workin it out...
workin it out you're so damn hard.

I am running out of words
to say to you, wondering why
I'm wasting my time
thinking back and wondering why
I'm such a fool. for loving you

Now wanna see what is on my mind
because slack of motivation is
taking over my time and I'm sick of trying.

Mind candy

Cada día estoy más vulnerable.
Todo me afecta de una manera que antes no lo hacía.
¿Estoy bloqueando mi mente a propósito?
¿Por qué no dejo de pensar en esas cosas que tanto daño me hacen?
Sólo sé que esto va a terminar pronto y voy a ser la persona que siempre soy,
o al menos la que intento ser.
Mientras tanto, voy a tratar de respirar profundo y soñar despierta...
porque eso es todo lo que hago últimamente.

Love is just a game

Cuando es perfect@, es de otro lado... y cuando es de acá, no funciona.

¿Soy sólo yo o el amor NUNCA es correspondido?

Don't want to psychoanalyze

Speeding
into the horizon
Dreaming of the siren,
wishing for her broken glass on the highway
It could be so easy.

The rhythm,
rhythm of an engine
always makes me empty.
I see the headlights coming at me
I can’t help but wonder.

Flying,
flying in slow motion.
Wind through my hair
and ripping through the scenery.
Oh, the wreckage
It is my secret need.

하루 하루

Dorabojimalgo tteonagara tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara
neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeobgie johatdeon gieokman gajyeogara.
Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae
neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae haruharu mudyeojyeogane.

(Neon neul jeo haneulgati hayahge tteun gureumgwado gati saeparahge
neon neul geureohge useojwo amu il eobdashi)

Busco el camino

Is there something missing?

Flirt

Quiero volver a sentir ese cosquilleo.

PD: ¡Basta de decirme que ahora 'estoy re normal', for Christ's sake!

You know mean

15-10-09 , 1 mes ♥

Te amamos, myv.

Simplicidad

Sí

No

Quizás

Mañana

Hoy!

Nunca.

Amo que todo sea tan abusurdo
(y sí, estoy loca).

Lovers & Haters

H.e.a.r.t breaker ~

Ambivalencia

Have you ever confused a dream with life?
Or stolen something when you have the cash?
Have you ever been blue?
Or thought your train moving while sitting still?
Maybe I was just crazy.
Maybe it was the 60's.
Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.

- Oh, and I used to be such a sad little girl.

Reset. Replay.

Yakusoku kawasazu ni itsuka mata aeru nante donna mahou daro?
Gomen arigatou sayounara iitakunai kotoba shika denasou
Ki ga tookunaru hodo no mirai de kokoro ga omokutte uzukumaru
Eien ni yoku nita juu bunkan sono tabi omoundarou~

All I need is:

... and nothing else.

Inside out

Everything is illuminated in the light of the past.
It is always along the side of us, on the inside, looking out.

Without a sound ~

A kiss goodbye, your twisted shell
as rice grains and roses fall at your feet.

Let's say goodbye, the hundredth time

and tomorrow we'll do it again.

Te amo, quiero verte feliz.

さよなら

To you my dear, who I wish no harm
but I know in the end this will turn out wrong.
See, I've been known to fall in love
but sometimes love just is not enough.
And my heart will stray before too long
So please forgive me when I sing this song。

Pájaro azorado

Nunca se sabrá cómo hay que contar esto, si en primera persona o en segunda,
usando la tercera del plural o inventando continuamente formas que no servirán de nada.
Si se pudiera decir: yo vieron subir la luna, o nos me duele el fondo de los ojos,
y sobre todo así: tú la mujer rubia eran las nubes que siguen corriendo
delante de mis tus sus nuestros vuestros sus rostros. Qué diablos.

Break me neatly, numb me sweetly

Say you would, say you could
say you'd come and stop the rain.

Say you'd try and hold me tight
and you just give me away.

Make me high on lullabies
a melody for me to sway.

Say you would, say you could
and you don't do anything.

雅 - Japanese Samurai Guitarist

❤~

どうも有難うございます。

Hope for better days

Sometimes I wonder why,
I'm so full of these endless rhymes
About the way I feel inside
I wish I could just get it right.

If I was a simple girl
And I could make you understand
There'd be no reason to think twice
You'd be my sun; you'd be my light
If I was a simple girl...

Fiddling while Rome is burning

Staring through glasses with no lenses
at a tree climbing the sky.
Our father seems to have lost his senses
as he stands before our burning home

With an olive branch in one hand, the other holding circumstance;
Evidence, if you will…
Gasoline dreams from a wishing well.

My beloved

Itoshii hito
Yukkuri kono me akete goran yo, itsumo to onaji deshou? ~

I can hear you crying for that halo

I'm quick learning lessons form the devil
but can't decide whether I arrived or was contrived.
I view so many faces form a tower up above
neglected inner wants and hungers for what I love.
Cluttered bunched black eyed and voiceless,
I fill up the sugar cup to stay up at night in my black upabove.

Where my face is a moon full of craters
with crummy eyes and cyst-thighs.
A perfect beacon for the fictionettes
who spread their legs wide open on the plasma
embodiments of everything I hide about my self today.

Hips rashed, elastic, crowded
barely wrenched into my upmost ambition for attraction.
So I nurse fellow wilted and the withered
shallow love, smut love
our love in my black upabove.

My face is a room full of mirrors
with crummy eyes and blistered thighs a bent brain full of lies.
A beacon for the fiction body voodoo
embodiments in morbid tense
misplace your grace to chase your copaface.

Vulnerabilidad

As the dark has no light,
and silence is wordless
there's no 'I' in 'we'.

Un manojo de contradicciones [Parte III]

Como te he dicho, lo que digo no es lo que siento, por lo cual tengo una reputación de ser enamoradiza y sabelotodo, de coquetear y leer historias de romances. La alegre Ana ríe, brinda respuestas graciosas, se encoge de hombros y pretende que nada le importa. La Ana más calmada reacciona del modo opuesto. Si soy completamente honesta, tengo que admitir que sí me afecta, que realmente trato de cambiar, pero que siempre me enfrento a un enemigo más poderoso que yo.

Una voz dentro de mí se lamenta, ‘¿Ves?, en eso te has convertido. Estás rodeada de opiniones negativas, miradas que reprochan, rostros burlones y gente a la que no le agradas, y todo porque no escuchas los consejos de tu lado positivo’. Créeme, me gustaría escuchar, pero no resulta, porque si estoy calmada y seria, todos creen que estoy montando una escenita y tengo que remontar la situación con una broma. Y luego, mi propia familia, que asume que debo estar enferma, me llena de aspirinas y sedantes. Chequean que no tenga fiebre, me preguntan cómo está mi intestino y me regañan por estar de mal humor, hasta que no puedo tolerarlo más. Porque cuando todos me están encima, me enojo, luego me entristezco y finalmente termino ocultando mis sentimientos, dejando salir el lado negativo y ocultando el positivo. Sigo buscando un modo de convertirme quién me gustaría ser y en quién podría ser si… si tan sólo no hubiera otra gente en el mundo.

Tuya, Ana M. Frank.

Stuck

I'm just sick and tired of changing the 'outside' me
to fit the 'inside' me.

Un manojo de contradicciones [Parte II]

Tengo miedo de que la gente que me conoce como habitualmente soy descubra que tengo otra faceta, una mejor y más refinada. Tengo miedo de que se burlen de mí, piensen que soy ridícula y sentimental y no me tomen en serio. Estoy acostumbrada a que no me tomen en serio, pero sólo mi lado superficial está acostumbrado a ello y puede tolerarlo; la Ana más profunda es muy débil. Si fuerzo a esta Ana a exponerse por más de quince minutos, se cierra completamente en sí misma y deja que la Ana número uno haga todo el trabajo. Sin que me dé cuenta, ella desaparece.

Por eso es que la Ana desagradable nunca es vista en compañía. Nunca ha hecho una aparición en público, aunque siempre la delantera cuando estoy sola. Sé exactamente cómo me gustaría ser, como soy… por dentro. Pero desafortunadamente sólo soy así conmigo. Y quizás esa es la razón por la cual misma -no, estoy segura de que ésa es la razón- la gente cree que soy feliz sólo exteriormente y yo me considero feliz internamente. Me guío por la Ana más profunda, pero por fuera no soy más que una juguetona tirando de la cuerda que la amarra.

Sasayaku kotoba wa 'te amore' ♥~

one, two, step... step by step.

Un manojo de contradicciones [Parte I]

Martes 1 de agosto, 1944

Queridísima Kitty:


(...) ¿Puedes por favor explicarme exactamente qué significa "un manojo de contradicciones"? Como muchas otras palabras puede ser interpretada de dos modos: una contradicción impuesta desde afuera o desde adentro. La primera significa no aceptar la opinión de otras personas, sentir que siempre se sabe más, tener la última palabra; en breve, todas las actitudes desagradables por las que se me conoce. La última, por la cual no se me conoce, es mi propio secreto.

Como te he dicho muchas veces, estoy dividida en dos. Un lado de mí contiene mi exuberante simpatía, mi alegría de vivir y, por sobre todo, mi habilidad para apreciar el lado bueno de las cosas. Con esto me refiero a que no encuentro nada malo en coquetear, besar, abrazar y hacer bromas. Este lado de mí en general está a la espera de poder atacar a mi otro lado, que es más puro, profundo y preciso. Nadie conoce el mejor lado de Ana, y por eso es que muchas personas no me toleran. Ay, puedo ser un divertido payaso durante una tarde, pero después de eso nadie quiere verme por un mes. De hecho, soy lo que una película romántica es para un profundo pensador: una mera diversión, un interludio cómico, algo que es prontamente olvidado. No es malo, pero tampoco particularmente bueno. Odio tener que decirte esto, pero ¿por qué no admitirlo cuando sé que es verdad? Mi lado más superficial siempre opacará a mi lado más profundo. No puedes imaginarte cuántas veces he tratado de dejar de lado a esta Ana, vencerla, esconderla. Pero no funciona, y yo sé por qué.

Like a bird, like a wind

君が代は
千代に八千代に
さざれ石の
いわおとなりて
こけのむすまで。

Tragedia en cuatro cuadros

1. Un mundo raro:
   Si te acuerdas de mí,
   no me menciones
   porque tendrás amor del bueno
2. Piensa en mí:
   Cuando quieras quitarme la vida,
   no la quiero para nada;
   para nada me sirve sin ti.
3. Somos:
   Un sueño imposible
   que busca la noche
4. Las simples despedidas:
   Al final la tristeza es la muerte
   lenta de las
   simples
   cosas...

Ne me quitte pas

Je ferai un domaine
Où l'amour sera roi
Où l'amour sera roi
Où tu seras reine.

& so much more

Destiny

--------is the bridge

-------------------you build
---------------------------to the one
------------------------------------you love.

雲雀より 空にやすらふ（う） 峠かな

Zutto zutto anata no soba de yume wo mitetai no
Anata no tonari de anata no yume ga mitai no
Kusa ya hana ga mizu nashi ja sakenai you ni
Hito ga yume nashi ja ikirenai you ni, watashi mo... dakara.

As if it were a fairytale

Come to me, now I can see:
there's nothing that could change the way I used to be.
I realised this heart of mine won't let me down,
if only in dreams I could make you mine till the end of times.

Scapricciatiello

Do you love me the way you kiss me cause you kiss me like you love me,
Do you mean everything you say and do you say everything you mean?
Do you love me the way you hold me cause you hold me like you love me,
Is it only a lovely dreamer, can I dream on my wedding day?

- romance & cigarettes

Just to remind myself

...there's nothing a cup of coffee cannot heal.

Don't think, just feel

Well I'm banking on the fact that once my cruel intentions pass that
I'll be charming, witty and sweet enough for you.
But as I'm walking down this road I realize my shoes are gone
and my hair is matted to my neck from this morning dew.

And I can't be, all of what you need.
But I'll be wise & strong until my bones grow weak.
And I can't prove...that I am, good enough.
But I can promise I'm as good as I can be
if you'd only see that you move me with your frequencies.

Once my silly notions pass I realize that the task
is bigger than my small hands are able to do.
But I know I would fight the past & brave the darkest of all men.
And I would swim across the ocean if you asked me to.

Once my hair grows long, in the summer sun
You'll see that I can be your kind favorite letter.
And when this town burns down we'll walk out hand in hand
You're the only reason this place had any color.


- by Torrie James.

Gotas de cristal

It's a bad night to be alone
but that's the way it goes.
And I think of you whenever life gets me down,
I think of you whenever you're not around
and you rest your bones
somewhere far from my house
Yeah, but you still pull me home.

Inside, then outside for good

~ Did you really think it was gonna end, just like that?

And they say...

Good things don't end with 'eum,' they end with 'mania' or 'teria.'

Tonight. Insight.

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can.

I shine so bright when you're around, ♥

Who's to say that we're not good enough?
and who's to say that this is not our love?

Mother don't tell me friends are the ones that I lose
'cause they'd bleed before you
and sometimes family are the ones you'd choose
It's too late now
I hold on to this life I found.

And who's to say we won't burn it out?
and who's to say we won't sink in doubt?
Who's to say that we won't fade to gray?
Who are they anyway? Anyway they don't know.

El polo opuesto de la sublime seriedad del entusiasmo

La paciencia es la conciencia clara y actual de que hay males mayores que los presentes en este momento y que por el hecho de huir o defendernos de éstos con violencia podríamos hacer que aquéllos viniesen. - El coraje es evidentemente una especie de paciencia. -
La paciencia es por ello una cualidad sumamanente apreciable, pues la persona paciente recibe no los máximos males, sino sólo los males presentes.

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Para saber cuánta felicidad puede recibir uno en la vida lo único que se necesita es saber cuánta felicidad puede dar.

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El conocer acompaña a la voluntad como el arcoiris a la lluvia. Pura pluralidad y movimiento es la voluntad, y eso mismo es la lluvia; pura unidad y quietud es el arcoiris , y eso mismo es el conocer. Y, sin embargo, tanto el arcoiris como el conocimiento también como condición y base su antítesis total, la lluvia y la voluntad.

芸者

You cannot say to the sun, "More sun." Or to the rain, "Less rain." To a man, geisha can only be half a wife. We are the wives of nightfall. And yet, to learn kindness after so much unkindness, to understand that a little girl with more courage than she knew, would find her prayers were answered, can that not be called happiness? After all these are not the memoirs of an empress, nor of a queen. These are memoirs of another kind.

All of my darkest fears

Mientras estudiaba para Exégesis, encontré este párrafo que escribí hace unos años:

"When I was a child, I had a strange fear of moths. I used to scream very loud and run away everytime I saw one of them. After some time, not only I stopped having this fear but also I kept the moths in boxes, fed them and named them"

I can hear the unsatisfying silence

{UO - 17/12/08}

In a deep breath it all starts to change.
Flip my world inside out, honestly I like it better this way
When I mesh the night through the back of my eyes.

I've been swallowed up alive,
Shut down
Building from the inside out
I can finally walk through the walls.

Heroes and thieves

Quisiera tener un don, un superpoder para poder entrar en la mente de las personas que más me importan y ayudarlas de la manera que sea. Pero me voy a tener que conformar con ser 'normal', ¿no? (aunque conociendomé, también haría alguna que otra maldad...).

SoReal

Paint me the future: just you & me ~

For old times' sake

Sucker! It's written all over my face.

{PPG ♥}

In my eyes I do see

I'll be your lady
As the ocean rises, the sun is fading.

(The buzz, the buzz of the city).

Lu-lu-lucky

I'd rather waste my life pretending

than have to forget you for one whole minute ♡

This world has lots to offer

I am a girl of six feet tall
Just looking for some answers
In a world that answers none of them at all.
I'll say, "Hi," but not reply
To the letters that you write
Because I found some peace of mind.

Cause I'm only as tall as my heart will let me be
And I'm only as small as the world will make me seem.
When the going gets rough and I feel like I may fall
I'll look on the brightside - I'm roughly six feet tall.

Entia non sunt multiplicanda praeter necessitatem

'En igualdad de condiciones la solución más sencilla es probablemente la correcta'.

El principio de la Navaja de Occam se utiliza fundamentalmente como complemento de las leyes de la lógica, con el fin de evitar el pensamiento mágico. Según este principio, siempre que se encuentren varias explicaciones a un fenómeno, se debe escoger la más sencilla que lo explique por completo.

Por ejemplo, para explicar la caída de una manzana al suelo, podríamos plantear las siguientes explicaciones:

1. Unos duendes traviesos invisibles e indetectables la han movido hasta el suelo, movidos por el afán de molestar.
2. La madurez propia de la fruta ha debilitado el pedúnculo por el que está unida al árbol y, debido al peso excesivo, la gravedad ha propiciado su caída.
3. Una tormenta a su paso tiró la manzana.

Todas estas alternativas (no) explican igualmente el fenómeno desde el punto de vista lógico y experimental (solo las dos últimas), pero el criterio de Occam nos obliga a escoger la segunda como la más probable, ya que las demás nos obligarían a asumir una serie de postulados mucho más complicados.

Camino sobre mi sombra

I feel like a hero & you are my heroine,

Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin? ~

Valium

You are mine - only in my dreams.

Jealous Impulses

I want to sing to you my love
My only love and happiness.
Don't be so blue, so blue my love,
Take off your shoes, take off my dress.
This too shall pass.

But tell me, what have I done to deserve you?
Must have done something cause that's how it works.
Must have been kind to kittens and birds,
In a previous life must have thought happy thoughts...

'Cause there, you were there right beside me
Then somehow inside me while inside myself.
Books on the shelf thoughts on the shelf
Hands to myself, i should definitely keep my hands to myself.

Love is a dangerous pastime,
Caught between madness and gladness of flight.
Nothing is wrong and nothing is right
Falling asleep in your arms every night.

But Love's such a strange situation
Full of frustration and anger and fear.
Everything's tears
Nobody hears
Nobody's here, and nobody hears...

Cheerocracy

Yeah, you got me feelin' all those butterflies inside,
In your locker I would hide.
The truth, it's only you I see,
And you're just what I need.
Not everything works as it seems,
Is that so hard to believe?

Dulce Fantasía

Poca gravedad,
sigo en el aire aún sin despegar.
Mi fragilidad al descubierto
y no puedo escapar.

These calories are, are killing me

ST_RV_NG F_R P_RF_CT_ _N.

(The social scene where she gets her fix
Has been broken since '86
Now just look at that social clique
Do you really wanna be a part of it?
Let's not let us forget
Where she gets the habit
She gets the pills from her skills
She gets the skills from the pills
And just look at that clique
Do you really wanna be the star of it?)

20 years of snow

His daughter is twenty years of snow falling,
She's twenty years of strangers looking into each other's eyes.
She's twenty years of clean.
She never truly hated anyone or anything,
She's a dying breed.

Brightness

Watch the sun it paints an orange sky
Lay me down and feel the days gone by ♡

Me alegrás el corazón

Sarah from See You Soon~

- A veces tan simple como una burbuja.

Decorations, lights that never end.
Still thinking of that night
when for a moment
I was your to hold
and I saw everything; <3

The world's not waiting

maybe next time I'll remember not to tell you something stupid
like I'll never leave your side ~

Needless to say you're the one I need the most

I've seen myself in a thousand faces
Strung out on life's path
I would add up what you mean to me
But I cannot do the math
And this fashionista's garden party
Well I had enough of that
Cause the only one I come undone for is you.

She longed for a bit of excitement in her life

Stick it out

siempre eligiendo el camino más largo, conflictivo e insatisfactorio-
pero después de todo es mi camino, mi decisión, mi vida.

Luckless romance

I never want to see you unhappy,
I thought you'd want the same for me.

Frío sosegador

When roses cease to bloom, dear
and violets are done,
When bumblebees in solemn flight
Have passed beyond the sun,

The hand that paused to gather
Upon this summer's day
Will idle lie, in Auburn.--
Then take my flower, pray!

Emily Dickinson.

The sun floods your room as you drown

The world is not
leaving us (leave us behind)
But we will be
leaving this world
Yeah, the world is not
leaving us (leave us behind)
Do we believe in this world?

Cause we are, the light
in the tunnel,

We are the living and dying,

See how we are,
alone in the world

We are the light
in the tunnel
That's all.

Cyanide

She stared at the floor and said:
'This is how much I hate myself.'
It's never gonna end,
but at least it's not a trend.

Crítica de la razón pura

-¿Qué es lo que hay que desear?
-Una mirada que vea ponerse el Sol desde una cárcel igual que desde un palacio. Esa mirada es lo que hay que desear y nada más.
-¿Quién puede tener esa mirada?
-Cada uno de nosotros.
-¿A quién le gustaría tenerla?
-A todos.
-¿Quién la quiere?
-Uno de cada cien mil.

A. Schopenhauer